December 24, 2006
Randomly...
Vainity got shamelessly in love. Just look at her blog. Read how smitten she is. See how shamelessly in love she has become. Love knows no shame. But, I like. I like because this is you. You are being who you are. No fear. No shame. It only matters that you and her, you both are in love. The world can celebrate that or just sod off.
xxx
This is the kind of rainy Sunday that I imagined I will just stay home and rot and do nothing. And of course, wake up late. I did. I woke up but I didn't get out of bed. Just thinking about how dead one can wake up feeling, I laid on my bed for almost 3 hours, doing nothing. Trying to recall my dreams and doing nothing. Until quite inevitably, I got depressed and started to cry.
Why did I even bother waking up? I only decided that maybe I'd watch CSI:Miami since I didn't catch that on Wed. So, I got out of bed and I watched telly. And now, I'm still thinking, maybe I should go back to my bed... except I can't get to sleep already. It's damn fucked up.
xxx
Thought I'd enjoy singing with my girl friends again. It's been a long, long time since we last went KTV together. Thought it'd be great to sing songs from that long ago era and laugh.
But, I just couldn't sing. I couldn't even browse for songs to sing. All the songs I wanted to sing were songs we've sung and I just couldn't sing them without thinking about her. Even listening to my friends sing made me sad. It's crazy.
Thankfully, it's a KTV-cum-buffet. So, I did the other real thing. I ate. I had lots of salmon sashimi and pan-fried dory. Eating is distracting. Sleeping is engaging.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 17:05